Confessions of A Lost Soul.....

I woke up this morning and as soon as I raised my head the pouding started all over again,yesterday I turned sixteen and last night was the first time I got punched in the face by"the love of my life".My girls decided to give me my first drink and I got wasted!!i was tore up and he did not like that at all .only being one year older than me born Apri l1st 1980 and I april 2nd 1981 he actually believed he was my DADDY.....When I got back on the block to pick him up(mind u I was far from a block bitch) he just started spazzing,yelling where the fuck had I been and Why didnt i call him,(but he never tried calling me)who the fuck i been fucking????He just went off....I tried to talk to him and get him 2 calm down and he was not feeling me.he made me walk to the car with him,he snatched my keys and hopped in the driver seat,i got in on the passenger side .He pulled off and never asked me if i had all my things.i had set my bag down.(the new LV bag that he got me from the outlet)I was so upset but i had to bite my tongue(literally)when we got to the corner of Hudson and Helena he just stopped the car and punched me dead in my left eye,I couldn't see anything.I started screaming,he started yelling that I should feel fucked up that I made him hit me like that.I couldnt believe my fucking ears.He took me to his house and would not let me leave,I was petrified.He started pulling at my shirt,he lifted up and started sucking and biting my nipples.I just knew they were bleeding.I was to scared to react,so I just started crying,he never stopped and on April 3rd1997 i lost my virginity(or was i raped????)That was the first of many ass whipping I received from him.....Either way I had just Lost My Soul......