His hand went down my thighs,
I look up and I met his eyes.
A concerned look came aross my face. And he said; "Baby I miss you". My response short and full of breath,
Me too.
There is no way in hell I could live without this touch,
this kiss,
not to mention this dick.
The type that make a bitch get sick.
When she first find out he was doing those things with someone else.
Some one other than herself,was receiving the "dick down"

Things are starting to get out of control,when I realize I have gotten a hold.
A hold on his head making me sea sick,
A hold of his ears the one thats pierced,
let me find out I'm about to give him a titty.
A split to the ear and one in his mouth,
Im excited and he is too,the stabbing to my leg shows me that,
I grab for it as he sucks at 'my more than a handful',
I look up and think Damn this nigga is handsome.
His chocolate skin is turning me on,the florida boy swagg got me gone.

Confessions Of A Lost Soul

Who the fuck is that ringing my daddy doorbell like that?I yelled as if the person on the outside could hear me.i got up and went to check the door,as I looked through the peephole I recognized the chocolate covered skin and gold smile on the other side.It was "BIG".I did a quick brushover to make sure I was atlleast presentable,I mean he has seen me right after I woke up but this morning was different.We had a big fight and for some reason I wanted him to know his bitch was thorough,she could take a ass whipping....
I opened the door and screen door,and he grabbed for my hand but I jumped because of reflex from him hitting me but I couldn't let him know I wasn't over it.He pulled me out the door and into his arms and he brought his face closer to mine my stomach flipped all over the place.He lightly kiss me on my lips,once again I realized he had me.He spoke softly as he said:are you hungry,I replied ;yeah.
We drove to a local spot where he knew he would see a few heads maybe even conduct a little business,but that was cool with me because I he had given me enough time to shower,get my makeup right and I even had time to pick out a pair of one of my sexiest pair of jeans,I wore my black and strapup sandals with the stiletto heel and my matching baby tee.I was cute and he continously let me know.We were eating by the time "EAZY" walked in ,he was from the westside and him and "BIG"were known rivals."BIG" kept talking but I could tell he had noticed "EAZY" from the door.They shot eachother a couple fuck wit it stares and "Eazy" and his lady friend began eating,by this time we were waiting on our check.
We paid and was getting up from the table when "EAZY" said something in our direction,though "BIG" didn't know exactly what his rival was ranting about him being him he had to respond.I squeezed my eyes shut hoping "BIG" would just cool out before things got out of hands and as I was opening them I noticed "BIG" going for his gun,I ducked and I heard the sound that scares me to this day the shattering sound of glass and screaming.He grabbed me by my arm tightly and dragged me towards the door,I was in shock.We walked quickly to the car,he gave me the keys and led me to the drivers side.he spoke softly again:Go home,dont look back I will call you in a minute.He shut the driver door and I did a U-turn in the road.Shaking I headed home to wait for his call......

Confessions Of A Lost Soul

The Best I ever Had

At the age of 30, I thought I had expierenced it all, sexually. That was until an old friend and I decided to meet at a party being held by a mutual friend of ours. The party was going well. Everyone was enjoying themselves, and we were too. This friend is a guy by the way, and he asked if I would like to dance. Of course I oblidged.

With a few too many drinks, we stopped at a local diner and grabbed something to eat. We ate till we were full and still didn't want the night to b ovr yet. Enjoying one another's company and time, we drove around while we blew two. Before I knew it, I was inviting him ovr to the house to hang for a while. To say that having him with me was exciting is an understatement.

We pulled infront of my apartment, and to my surprise he came ovr and opened my door. He did evrything I had wanted him to. Soon as we made it inside, he kissed me gently on my forehead, then he went to the bridge of my nose, and finally to my lips. I thought I would die.

I pulled at his shit, then tugged ruffly at his pants as the tight cove between my legs began to moisten my pink panties. It was time to take the pink bra and panty set off.

Grabbing is massive tool by one hand, I noticed i would need both hands. My eyes stretched as my mouth dropped. This man is huge!!

Dropping low and filling my mouth with all I could, I slobbed and bobbed knowing I was doing him just how he liked it. He continued to sqirm and moan as I steadied my pace. Before I could stop, I was vomitting on the root of his thick dick. Vomit covered his dick. I nonchalantly grabbed the towl that was close by and wiped it away to finish my job. I tickled and licked it with my tongue until I could feel it reach the maximum stiffness. He exploded and I rubbed the tip of his penis all over my 42D's. We both loved it.

It take long to introduce him to this HoneyComb hideout, and he dove in like he was always supposed to b here. I was in bliss, and rockin that belt like DREAM. He was doing his Fuckin Thang!!!!

With dick this good his head has to b trash. There was only one way to find out. He was so good and he knew it. I have never been a small woman and this man was flipping me everywhich way he could. As I stated to cum he took his thick long dick out and licked me like a kitten. I couldn't control myself. I exploded all over the sheets. Skeetin was my first name. I thought I was pissing on myself. I felt embarrassed. I got ovr it quickly though, it felt so good. For the first time in my life I felt stuck.

We layed up for hours talking and drinkin wine, and learning as much as we could about eachother. Ok, we weren't really best of friends we jus knew eachothr.

I looked at the clock, and it read 5:40am, and I had to b to wrk at 9am.

As I straddled him I was shocked that my walls had prepared themselves for the stretch, and swollowed his shaft. He grabbed hold of my hips, and we went to wrk as if someone was recording us. I wrked my hips and bounced, and better than them damn pornals.

This was by far the best sex I ever had. I still say that, and I know y Drake wrote that song. We collapsed and I glanced at the clock it read 7:19am I wondered if I should just call in.

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My horoscopes. It's crazy becuz I always have to run bak to him. Wen I feel horrible and hav no one else to talk to, there's him. He always listens. He inspires me wen he listens.
It's jus hard now to get him to think of someone othr than himself lately. I'm being kind by sayin lately. Wen he does though, I soak it up.
I jus feel crazy. I feel like somethin is missin and no matter wat I do the space is nevr filled. The one and only time I did feel satisfied, I complained. I feared leaving my comfort zone. I feared someone else being abl to love me and my babies whole-heartedly. During the complaint though I can say that I always let him know that he made me feel wonderful. I wanted to say it all the time. I thouht me puttin it out there was enuff. I wanted to tell him that I needed him and that I didn't want him to take that death trip away. Well, that's anothr story. Here I am once again askin for a night in shining armor.
A fairy tale, I jus forgot to ask what kind of book I wanted him to come from. The ganstar novels always leave you lonely..
I never write him he complains, and so here it is:
I didn't order what you asked for, becuz as u kno u called and tol me nevr mind.
My wallet was stollen ok, lost recently. In that damn Wal-Mart. I stay my ass at a Wal-Mart and Target. Ur oldest daughter cried and complained about getting some dirt that I tol her she cud hav. I forgot to get it so we were leaving the store. I tol her "NO" several times, and then gave in. I literally jus returned somthing and I had second thoughts bout puttin the damn return card in my wallet and I did the shit anyway. I liked that wallet too. $100 and somethin was in there. That money was not jus my money.
Oh well, I am jus tired of loosing. I hav long ben tired of ppl gaining off my expense. This lonely world can really change ur character. I talk myself out of it often.
I miss you. I jus feel good wen I can talk to you. I feel so emotional, so bombarded, and overwelmed. I even feel scared and not abl. I feel ppl taking advantage of me more than those that hav alredy. I feel powerless at some points. Although, I kno I hav to follow through, and keep going even through the doubts and the fears. I have to becuz I hav absolutely no choice. Especially wen the only ppl that trust and believe in your ideas r the same ones that could take them from you. Full profit.
Thank You for listening. The world won't kno that I feel this way at times, this is jus a bad moment. I guess. I hav to appear bright and smiley and friendly all the time. The wolves smell me sweat though, that's becuz they kno what I smell like.
the girls are good, and so am I. If I could hav spoken with you, I would not hav gotten as far as I did. You wudda diffused the way I am feelling right now. Or you wud hav asked me for somethin, and pissed me off :) I'm laughing you kno that.
I hav a cupl projects going right now. If the main one goes through, I can really be lookin at some decent change. I jus gave the guy a call to dbl ck on that, and he was talkin wit someone else that he keeps tellin me that he wants me to come and help him out wit. So he says. I want to b trusting but my trusting theory has been proven not effective. Wen ppl are drowning they do whatever they can to swim and stay on top. ?????Jus a lil like WTF (what the fuck)!!!!!!!
It's a really hard with kids. I will b payin daycare soon. Mommy is tired and she keeps getting sick. She can't nor she shudn't hav to deal wit them for the whole summer.
It's all good. You are doin all that you r supposed to to get home though, that is all that matters. I jus want a partner. Someone who trusts in me, and wants what I want as bad as I do for me and himself. Someone who helps me, cuz God knows I do all that I can for those I love. I support all the way 'as long as it's positive'.
I want to be inspired, as well as hav the capability to Inspire. I wnat osmeone to literally b my othr half. That means with these kids we go 50/50.     50/50     50/50    50/50   A functional family. Not me being home by myself at night, and my man ain't clockin in to no ovr night shift. I want us both b abl to file taxes. When a load needs to go in the drier you take the inniative and put it in for me. Surprises me often becuz I love fairytales. "you know I ma dreamer"
I want for him to love my babies as much as any real Father and Daddy loves they child. He lives to c me smile.
Well, I could go on so let me jus stop here.
Love You
NJoy