Saturday, February 5, 2011

U make me angry
Then u come in and make me smile


Ace bandages n bandaides
U go the whole mile
I need stitches


All else is jus cover-up
Nothing permanent.
It all fades aftr a while


Now,
A lil yellow puss
Then u come with ointments
And alcohol
The keloids form
And the scars are nevr gone
It heals with discoloration
Misunderstanding
Bigger now than wat it originally begun


Hmmmm
Over look it
Or cut it off and let it heal all ovr again?
Beautiful!
Awakening is a magical thing, looking back only mean you'll be awakening again.
sail on sista!
John Norris

Acceptance

God in His infinite wisdom
Did not make me very wise-
So when my actions are stupid
They hardly take God by surprise

Langston Hughes

50/50

I'm all alone in this world, she said,
Ain't got nobody to share my bed,
Ain't got nobody to hold my hand-
The truth of the matter's
I ain't got no man.

Big Boy opened his mouth and said, 
Trouble with you is
You ain't got no head!
If you had a head and used your mind
You could have me with you
All the time. 

She answered, Babe, what must I do?

He said, Share your bed-
And your money, too.

Langston Hughes

Thursday, February 3, 2011

always wants to condem me as his queen
He roams while I stay home
Cooking and keeping the house clean
I hav to b my own queen
In the end I get stuk being the part time sex machine
It almos feels like it cud b possible to happen again
Cupid and those silly arrows
He plays Russia rullet
Hmmm almos makes me happy and jump for joy
I feel like singig and dancing and gettin rid of my toys
Intoxicated
U make me
U come around and I start giggling and I raise my arms Reaching
I Start to spread my wings and .....
Wait
I am not free
I am not stuck because I am living
I can't ask y because the answer is with in me
I can't ask how because
I am responsible for evything I have happening
I stood still and was shown glimpses of the future
No more mistakes no more sons or daughters born without fathers
I rub my belly full from the ego and lies I've tol myself
Only to b temporarily satisfied from a dream
A made up reality
That only makes sense to me
Wat a soap oprah I am living

Sunday, January 30, 2011

stay away from the norm!!!!!!!

I remember I was talking to the Master about how in science everything is represented in mathematics as two formulas separated by an equals sign. I was talking about how both sides had to equal and how the most familiar equation described the universe as simply a balance of energy and matter. In fact they are both the same, it just appeared to be different. In effect all matter was just frozen energy. Then I started to talk about matter and anti-matter.
The Master stopped and said out loud. "They are both the same. They are both the same! Of course. Follow me. You deserve a gold coin."
I hurried along and said, "Wait, I thought you already knew about the Wisdom of Balance. You were explaining it to me yesterday about how all mysteries can be solved by seeing the balance of opposites. I'm just telling you how science discovered the same thing and that everything in the universe can be described as a balance of forces."
The Master slowed down but kept going back down the path to the cottage. "Every Master learns much from his student. I told you I had much to learn from you. I've known for years my destiny is to fully realize my God Consciousness. I even understood the Dance of Shiva yet I never really realized what The Wisdom of Balance meant until just now when I heard you say the words 'they are both the same'."
The Master went into the room full of paintings and found the bag of gold. He looked several minutes through the bag until he found an old gold coin. Master handed it to Chester. "Tell me what you see on the two sides."
Chester flipped it back and forth and finally said, "Well, this side looks like the Hindu God Shiva and the other side is sanscrit for creation. Ok? " Chester shrugged and looked back at the Master.
"When my Master gave me this coin, I had finished explaining to him the Dance of Shiva. I was quite proud. He gave me this coin but told me I didn't understand it. He said when I understood what the coin meant I would pass it on to my successor."
Chester just shrugged again. "Shiva created everything. So? Shiva is on one side and creation is on the other."
The Master said, "They are the same. Two sides of the same coin. Creation is not separate from God. Creation and God are the same thing. The difference between you and Christ, is that although Christ was born he never forgot he was God. You have forgotten, I had forgotten I was God. I just now understood that the reason I can say I am God is because God and Creation are opposites of the same thing. The created balanced by the uncreated. The ultimate balance! Thank you Chester. Your right its all the same. This coin is yours." The Master started laughing and said, "Sanjiv will see to your needs for dinner. I have much to contemplate."
Chester hefted the coin in his hand and said to the departing Master, "So do I."