A Slave To My Emotions

I have truly been fighting these urges. The urge to be wild and free. To go out and just b carefree. Don't ask. LOL I have no clue what is goin on. My mother and my mother-in-law say it's what I'm goin through with my husband. All I know is I hope it is just a phase.
Can someone just quickly tell me I'm beautiful and say they wanna do all the things to make me smile and I just feel better?!
Yea I know the answer already. It ain't  gonna make a diff. The man I'd like to hear that from has long since been occupied and content making other women feel better. Boosting the next bitch ego is his expertise now. LOL
U c what I mean my ass is drowning on and off in my own feelings.
I wrote a poem in my head on it in the shower yesterday. Can't remember how it went for nothing. 

My son is just too handsome. All I went through I am so thankful he is normal and healthy. O yea and spoiled.

Well the title says it all for me. That is how I feel. I can say my body feels a lot better than it has. i'm sore still however I am healing.