He comes in the middle of the night. Showers and gets dressed. Leaving his clothes here for me to was. Now I'm pissed cuz he did leave but he still comes back. He comes and goes as he pleases. What type of shit is that.
I screamed for my key. I screamed today for him to leave and not come back. I see all the stress all over him. I see the world and the streets and whatever else beating him down and I just don't know how to sit down. I wan to. Rely bad just for his sake. For his sake I want to b quiet. With my silence and in my silence peace comes and wondering for him comes. He will wonder Y I am not the same woman begging for him to come home and begging him to be with me and give me time.
Actually I hardly ever beg for time. I just ask for the kids to have a father. That's it. I ask for him to not sleep with other women and allow me to know about it. What I don't know doesn't hurt me. At the end of the day. I know what goes on he throws things right in my face. He told me tonight that it's becuz I go through his phone. That's the shit I am talking about. I should by no means be told something like that. Don't you agree? I can't help it. I also can't help even through my pain thinking of his pain. Smdh. I want to change.
What's good about loving someone who does not love u in the same manor.
LOVE vs RESPECT
I was told that men can love something and not respect it. That is my major issue. RESPECT. It's not what you do it's how you do it.
I think back to all the times I have been a good soldier, a good wife, friend, and confidant. Lol. It's not funny. Really it's not. I remember going to Elmira Correctional to get him. :) I went though all these changes to pick him up. Lmao.
I looked like a movie star. The guards couldn't stop watching me. My short shimmery black dress see through in the back of it, my hair lookin like Ciara in the Ride video, my nice sexy high heels.
I practiced the dance I would do for him too over and over again.
I pulled up in my white V12 s600 he bought me for Mother's Day. Those white boys were in awe. Another gift to keep my legs closed and door for him open. Idk mayb that's not what it's about. Mayb it is becuz I simply deserve it. The fact that he brings it up in every argument sucks.
Well I pick him up
I screamed for my key. I screamed today for him to leave and not come back. I see all the stress all over him. I see the world and the streets and whatever else beating him down and I just don't know how to sit down. I wan to. Rely bad just for his sake. For his sake I want to b quiet. With my silence and in my silence peace comes and wondering for him comes. He will wonder Y I am not the same woman begging for him to come home and begging him to be with me and give me time.
Actually I hardly ever beg for time. I just ask for the kids to have a father. That's it. I ask for him to not sleep with other women and allow me to know about it. What I don't know doesn't hurt me. At the end of the day. I know what goes on he throws things right in my face. He told me tonight that it's becuz I go through his phone. That's the shit I am talking about. I should by no means be told something like that. Don't you agree? I can't help it. I also can't help even through my pain thinking of his pain. Smdh. I want to change.
What's good about loving someone who does not love u in the same manor.
LOVE vs RESPECT
I was told that men can love something and not respect it. That is my major issue. RESPECT. It's not what you do it's how you do it.
I think back to all the times I have been a good soldier, a good wife, friend, and confidant. Lol. It's not funny. Really it's not. I remember going to Elmira Correctional to get him. :) I went though all these changes to pick him up. Lmao.
I looked like a movie star. The guards couldn't stop watching me. My short shimmery black dress see through in the back of it, my hair lookin like Ciara in the Ride video, my nice sexy high heels.
I practiced the dance I would do for him too over and over again.
I pulled up in my white V12 s600 he bought me for Mother's Day. Those white boys were in awe. Another gift to keep my legs closed and door for him open. Idk mayb that's not what it's about. Mayb it is becuz I simply deserve it. The fact that he brings it up in every argument sucks.
Well I pick him up
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