It has been a while, that situation was crazy. I had to go and get the whole procedure done over again. Not everything was taken out. The size of it was a lRge fetus. They came in and apologized for not knowing and evythin else.
Guess u kno they gave me some good drugs b4 lettin me go and forgot to take the iV out of my arm.
The American way is to sue ppl right, well that's what I am lookin n2.
The emergency room, the doc gave me two doses of morphine and a vicoden within 4 hours. I did not fall alseep b/c of the pain. He sent me home with the instruction to take percaset evy four hours. That was not wrkin. That's y I called the place again and they seen me. They tried to explain some b.s to me about emotional pain seeming like physical. I almos argued wit her. They did the altra sound and apologized for nit seeing ms sooner wen I called cryin the day before. They asked how cud the hospital send me home like that.

Well throughout the pain, crouchin over in agony I lay on the couch and heard the gas and electric ppl taking the box or somethin off the house. Pitiful. I jus had dreams bout that. I saw and knew they were comin.
We been I. The dark for a week. My next door neighbor let us use her plug for the fridge. She helped us for 5 days. I gave her $65. She see she was on a buyer and cudnt do it any longer.
O well we took all our freezer goods to my Dads and out a fee things from the fridge to my mothers aftr finding out it will take another 5 days to vet it cut back on.
How do I get n these messes.
I got a small little lump of $ the I insurance claim wen someone broke in and took my personal things. Things I cherish cuz memories.
Is it wrong to cling to memories so hard?
Whatevr
Back to the point.
Now it's 37 degrees and I have to stay warm.
I have thoughts of other things I'd like to share, but I always feel so insecure and scared about who will c them later.
Mayb soon not now. I jus feel trapped through This endless cycle of stupid and rash decisions. Where do I turn now.
I tol myself I will go on a 5 day fast this weekend. Can't wait.
Hopefully the cleansing will do. I am motivating myself for positive thought as well, that way things can really start manifesting n the direction I need them to go in.
Well I am beyond tired and I better jus get my things together to go to sleep.
NJoy