I was just bout to add this course so that I could drop another. Yes, I am back in school. Don't kno if I tol u or not, I haven't been keepin up as much as I shud.
So many things have been happening, back to back. At the moment as well, I am looking for another place to stay.
I packed a couple things up jus n case we hav to b outta here sooner than what is expected. How things hav been going wit me you never. I never know rather. I really hav been thinkin too, about my degree. While I ma jobless, I my degree is in early childhood education. Why not do the dare care thing? How things are goin right now wit the economy and all, I cud possibly promote income base childcare. We care -vs- watch your child. I hav so many great ideas for giving back. I thought to do all these things through the book club. I cud jus go right ahead and do them through the daycare. With my degree, I can offer more education base like an early head start program.
Like my Dad keep sayin at least I will hav a babysitter. ME lol
Today was actually a really relaxin day. I dod not see my mother this whole weekend, nor my grandmother. I only talked to my mom a coupl minutes this weekend. For those that kno me that is very diff. Mr Man has been gone for most the day. That is a lil nerve wreckin but i kno he is releived to b abl to b out. He has my car though that's the only thing for me. I sed I won't stress it though.
My niece and nephew came right aftr my God kids left. Both sets stayed the night. That's the othr thing too, I really stay occupied wen kids r around. They giv me life or somethin. I forget the things that stress me, and watch my babies hav fun and b kids. The load keeps me busy and focused on jus that.
My neice and nephew helped the grls make their lil princess house. It was a paint and glue project. Paint got on my couch too. lol That aint so bad I tol myself and kept goin. I took a quick nap while they did that and played, and made a mess.
Everything else is evything. I am jus here now.
I day dreamed of my husband today in the shower. I dreamed of him wanting me and enjoyin my cookin. That's crazy. For what?
I do miss him. I want to be happy though. I want my grls to b happy. They can still b happy without me being wit their dad. I kno they can they have to. I want soemone that will come from wrk everyday and pay all the bills even though I can. I'll pitch in where I can. lol
Well...... I am getting sleepy. This is y my life is everywhere, I never complete a thought, and go on to the next thought jus that quick.
Gotta focus and get organized.
Well, this relaxin day is back to the othr routine in the morning. More studyin, and searchin for a place to live, and papers that hav to b written.. I actually like those papers that hav to b written. The car had broken down, that cost $200, and come to find out the inspection sticker is old. I did not kno that. My mom had got an inspection sticker. All that wrk she had gotten doen cost me $800. Damn
I wont even do it to myself today though. Since I ahve been pretended and hiding what's been goin on infront of my oldest twin, she has started eating again. It's me that is makin her sick. She's worried to death bout me. I remember wen He died, I went through the same thing. Jus puttin food to my mouth made me gag and begin to earl if I forced. I promised to b happier for her carry out these tasks jus becuz they hav to b done and nothin more. That way my babies can stay healthy. Cuz really it is like that. Get this happiness state of mind.
She had been starvin herself, she got weak one mornin to where she cud not really walk well. Wen u get tired and drained, on top of lack pf food you may hav the energy but don't really hav it.
Life really ios that simple and Smile -vs- Frown
NJoy
So many things have been happening, back to back. At the moment as well, I am looking for another place to stay.
I packed a couple things up jus n case we hav to b outta here sooner than what is expected. How things hav been going wit me you never. I never know rather. I really hav been thinkin too, about my degree. While I ma jobless, I my degree is in early childhood education. Why not do the dare care thing? How things are goin right now wit the economy and all, I cud possibly promote income base childcare. We care -vs- watch your child. I hav so many great ideas for giving back. I thought to do all these things through the book club. I cud jus go right ahead and do them through the daycare. With my degree, I can offer more education base like an early head start program.
Like my Dad keep sayin at least I will hav a babysitter. ME lol
Today was actually a really relaxin day. I dod not see my mother this whole weekend, nor my grandmother. I only talked to my mom a coupl minutes this weekend. For those that kno me that is very diff. Mr Man has been gone for most the day. That is a lil nerve wreckin but i kno he is releived to b abl to b out. He has my car though that's the only thing for me. I sed I won't stress it though.
My niece and nephew came right aftr my God kids left. Both sets stayed the night. That's the othr thing too, I really stay occupied wen kids r around. They giv me life or somethin. I forget the things that stress me, and watch my babies hav fun and b kids. The load keeps me busy and focused on jus that.
My neice and nephew helped the grls make their lil princess house. It was a paint and glue project. Paint got on my couch too. lol That aint so bad I tol myself and kept goin. I took a quick nap while they did that and played, and made a mess.
Everything else is evything. I am jus here now.
I day dreamed of my husband today in the shower. I dreamed of him wanting me and enjoyin my cookin. That's crazy. For what?
I do miss him. I want to be happy though. I want my grls to b happy. They can still b happy without me being wit their dad. I kno they can they have to. I want soemone that will come from wrk everyday and pay all the bills even though I can. I'll pitch in where I can. lol
Well...... I am getting sleepy. This is y my life is everywhere, I never complete a thought, and go on to the next thought jus that quick.
Gotta focus and get organized.
Well, this relaxin day is back to the othr routine in the morning. More studyin, and searchin for a place to live, and papers that hav to b written.. I actually like those papers that hav to b written. The car had broken down, that cost $200, and come to find out the inspection sticker is old. I did not kno that. My mom had got an inspection sticker. All that wrk she had gotten doen cost me $800. Damn
I wont even do it to myself today though. Since I ahve been pretended and hiding what's been goin on infront of my oldest twin, she has started eating again. It's me that is makin her sick. She's worried to death bout me. I remember wen He died, I went through the same thing. Jus puttin food to my mouth made me gag and begin to earl if I forced. I promised to b happier for her carry out these tasks jus becuz they hav to b done and nothin more. That way my babies can stay healthy. Cuz really it is like that. Get this happiness state of mind.
She had been starvin herself, she got weak one mornin to where she cud not really walk well. Wen u get tired and drained, on top of lack pf food you may hav the energy but don't really hav it.
Life really ios that simple and Smile -vs- Frown
NJoy
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