This is amazing, still he can teach me something. It's like he speaks to me
Not by chance

My youngest was jus playin with this poodle that their Dad gave me. I tol them I miss there daddy, and he gave me that on V Day. 
My oldest sed she misses her daddy too. She then asks me wat he did to go to jail. I tol her he did not follow and abide by the law. I also tol her that their Daddy wud hav to tell her. She asked me what the law was. 
She stumped me. Well the law is a set of rules u follow by.... Jus as I am starting to say more, she says 'the law is of God mommy?' 
Wow then she asks where God is. I tell her evywhere in u n me n u sister all of us. Then she asks me 'is God in ur head or ur heart mommy?'.
Wow 
NJoy

I love you (without spoken words)

They say life is what you make it.
We are what we make us.
When we play with life, we also play with our selves.
When we see life as being this hard and upsetting event, it's because we're playing with our lives and our selves.
The question then becomes, do we know how to stop playing with our lives?
Do we know how to stop playing with our selves?
Who do we think we are anyway?
Life is not ours to play with!
We have a chance to live and share and enjoy life and yet we play with it and cry about how life treats us.
If only we can just learn how to stop playing with our LIFE!

Paul Lawrence Dunbar wrote "Life".

A CRUST of bread and a corner to sleep in,
A minute to smile and an hour to weep in,
A pint of joy to a peck of trouble,
And never a laugh but the moans come double;
And that is life!


A crust and a corner that love makes precious,
With a smile to warm and the tears to refresh us;
And joy seems sweeter when cares come after,
And a moan is the finest of foils for laughter;
And that is life!
John Lee Norris

I am scared sometimes becuz of what happen b4
I am scared sometime even though I am told I shudnt b anymore
Still carrying the weight of past times, even though I talk to myself and say "that past i hav no more"


I am scared to turn the knob
Push and explore the world
That's jus on the othr side of the door.
Too many doors.
Is it really too many though.
I kno I can't go wrong when jus going wit the flow
Conflicting
My thoughts are jumbled and distorted more than b4


Ugh
once again,
I have no clue what's behind that door
True.
They do say
U have to take a leap of faith
But................
Do you?

Is it selfish to hurt when you want and can't have? When you have others who look at you hurt and feel bad for you because you hurt about someone else and not them.If you forget about self, would that end their hurt?

Do we hurt because we just don't know what the hell we're doing in life?

Can we end some pain if we decided that what causes such pain, I can put on hold or just do without?

Should I just give the kids away so I can hang out and date as i want too?

OR

Should I just forget about a nigga and my self and give the kids all my Mind, heart and Love.

Is Love a thing or just a mental antic?

Do I really  lose or miss anything if I can make physical love.

Do I have the right to feel good with a man or woman at the exspense of others?

What is it that I really want?

Do I even know?

I know my kids love me for sure, for now.

Will I lose that real love if I keep allowing them to see me sad?

I think I know what I have to do now! 

 

John Lee Norris

Had to whoop my kids butt 3 times today. Crazy. They runnin. Around the post office, aftr they done cut my box off. Tryin to listen and chastise them. They always get somewhere and act like they dont hav no home training or commen sense. They both really do feel like they hav a touch of ADD.
My olest of the twins act like she jus has to b heard and get he las few words out all the time. That drives me insane. Jus won't listen. I tol them since they cut up n the post ofc and Family Dollar.
Look I'm yellin at the youngest now. My husband doesn't understand y I now jus want a divorce. He claims that I am jus unsupportive of his non thinking ass wen I am here goin crazy wit these girls. He shud b here to help. I didn't have them on him we hadthem together.
He had the nerve to send me a letter talkin bout he can't believe that I am talkin to him knowin that all the shit he has accepted from me that I hav done.
Yes, I have done things. Things would hav nevr happen had he not been the unfaithful husband and selfish arrogant bastard that he is.
I had a hard time tellin u certain things, this is actuly a little bit of old news. Didnt really even go ovr the fact that we all were supposed to get a trailer visit. Our freakin trailer was on the 30th of this month. He through it all away. I still feel a lil empty. The first time he can bring me a lil joy and he goes and throws it away. He throws it away wit it bein a rational (to him)thought. He sat and thought about what he did. He made a conscious decision to throw away his good time and say the hell wit the trailer and the hell wit his family. What does he not get bout that. I am here failin on love ovr and I've again. Being miserable for my kids. Mad cuz I sex n the beginning u hav to b here to help. Do t get me wrong I can do it by myself, but I sur hell do t want to. I'm not either. It's not fair to my babies eithr. How does he not c that?
Well infuses I continue to try and get a buzz from this wine. This IB 800 shud b kickin n soon. I am gonna jus b patient. I hav so many things that I wanna do. No finances, and no day are. Crazy insane. What mothers don't go through this these days bi jus hate bein a statistic and the men I deal wit need to quit hatin to b a statistic too.
I'll finish watching the Never Endin Story wit the Grls
NJoy