Mmmmmmmmmm
I can feel it slowly but surely the old me slipping her way back in to take over. Can't wait. This pain I feel I can rid myself of. I've waited and now I know what I have or have had. SMH LOL
It's crazy how life's activities and the choices that we make for whatever reason change things. I have three beautiful children now, marriage practically over, 13 years or so of my life have been jus stagnation. I've stopped myself from growing turned down opportunities that I could have well benefitted from. But Ahhhhhhh the shouldda woulda coulddda's Y bother. Time is now and this moment is what my lungs breathe in to keep me moving. Can't live in the past. Besides the future is what I make it to be. Again as my body heals and my heart freezes, the notion of surviving and caring soley for mine takes over.
I just tell myself even though I feel ugly I am not. I'm not. I am beautiful. Even though my husband saying it feels like wedding bells and gold rain at the same time, I don't need it from him. How many people say what he won't say? Well, won't say to me lmao.
I just can't wait. I breath hard just thinking. The idea of a man just touching the side of my face. That soft touch, you know that touch I'm talking about. That touch of admiration and I can just see the lust in his eyes for me beyond the stare. He wants to take me in. I want kissing me. I don't normally like to kiss. However I want to be kissed. I want to rubbed down my arms and my neck. I wanna burn and beg for him not to stop. I wanna beg for it through my eyes, as he ignores me and makes me wait anyway. I wanna feel the heat from his breath from my lips as his tongue lightly traces my jaw line and finds that spot on the back of my neck. I want to feel his warm kisses down my neck as those kisses are planted lower and lower they send chills throughout my spine.
Soon my day is coming.......
NJoy
I can feel it slowly but surely the old me slipping her way back in to take over. Can't wait. This pain I feel I can rid myself of. I've waited and now I know what I have or have had. SMH LOL
It's crazy how life's activities and the choices that we make for whatever reason change things. I have three beautiful children now, marriage practically over, 13 years or so of my life have been jus stagnation. I've stopped myself from growing turned down opportunities that I could have well benefitted from. But Ahhhhhhh the shouldda woulda coulddda's Y bother. Time is now and this moment is what my lungs breathe in to keep me moving. Can't live in the past. Besides the future is what I make it to be. Again as my body heals and my heart freezes, the notion of surviving and caring soley for mine takes over.
I just tell myself even though I feel ugly I am not. I'm not. I am beautiful. Even though my husband saying it feels like wedding bells and gold rain at the same time, I don't need it from him. How many people say what he won't say? Well, won't say to me lmao.
I just can't wait. I breath hard just thinking. The idea of a man just touching the side of my face. That soft touch, you know that touch I'm talking about. That touch of admiration and I can just see the lust in his eyes for me beyond the stare. He wants to take me in. I want kissing me. I don't normally like to kiss. However I want to be kissed. I want to rubbed down my arms and my neck. I wanna burn and beg for him not to stop. I wanna beg for it through my eyes, as he ignores me and makes me wait anyway. I wanna feel the heat from his breath from my lips as his tongue lightly traces my jaw line and finds that spot on the back of my neck. I want to feel his warm kisses down my neck as those kisses are planted lower and lower they send chills throughout my spine.
Soon my day is coming.......
NJoy
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