I would very much so like to write about more than just the things that I am goin through with my so called husband.
That's all that is really goin on right now. My little man is beautiful. My girls are playing and fussing as they always do. LOL
He has been nicer I must say since the birth of our son. The way he talks I mean. He does not always answer his phone, and he still stays gone and throws his responsibilities off on someone else. He believes because he pays them to help in his place that makes things better. It doesn't. Its so amazing that he cant see the obvious. He thinks because maybe he cheats on me with someone whose face is as pretty as mine is ok.
I just can't wait. I don't even wanna write it down in fear of jinxing. LOL
What I will say is I can not wait to gain my independence back. My body looks a lot better than it did just yesterday. I feel better getting up and down the stairs....... I feel pain sometimes, I still have to move slow however I feel 10x's better. I don't feel as ugly as I did yesterday. I have been looking in the mirror and having to tell myself 'this too will pass'.
It's funny I tried to tell my girl when all your focus is away from home, those flings die and your home is looking elsewhere.
The fever to be loved and touched on burns in me. I want to feel that again. I want a man to walk behind me as I fix his plate and tell me he got it. Tap my ass and tell me to go sit down and he'll fix his babies plates as well.
I want to be kissed on the back of my neck and rubbed down my cheeks. I figure if I say it enough it'll happen. I mean my Dad kept telling me to fall back and relax and just let things be and things would get better. I can say that they have, although he still sleeps around. Just a minute ago before leaving was the second time since my early pregnancy had he kissed me on the lips. he asked for it. I was reluctant, just not used to him calling constantly and calling me babe and baby and honey.
Well..........
I'll just sit and relax because there is nothing else I can do.
That's all that is really goin on right now. My little man is beautiful. My girls are playing and fussing as they always do. LOL
He has been nicer I must say since the birth of our son. The way he talks I mean. He does not always answer his phone, and he still stays gone and throws his responsibilities off on someone else. He believes because he pays them to help in his place that makes things better. It doesn't. Its so amazing that he cant see the obvious. He thinks because maybe he cheats on me with someone whose face is as pretty as mine is ok.
I just can't wait. I don't even wanna write it down in fear of jinxing. LOL
What I will say is I can not wait to gain my independence back. My body looks a lot better than it did just yesterday. I feel better getting up and down the stairs....... I feel pain sometimes, I still have to move slow however I feel 10x's better. I don't feel as ugly as I did yesterday. I have been looking in the mirror and having to tell myself 'this too will pass'.
It's funny I tried to tell my girl when all your focus is away from home, those flings die and your home is looking elsewhere.
The fever to be loved and touched on burns in me. I want to feel that again. I want a man to walk behind me as I fix his plate and tell me he got it. Tap my ass and tell me to go sit down and he'll fix his babies plates as well.
I want to be kissed on the back of my neck and rubbed down my cheeks. I figure if I say it enough it'll happen. I mean my Dad kept telling me to fall back and relax and just let things be and things would get better. I can say that they have, although he still sleeps around. Just a minute ago before leaving was the second time since my early pregnancy had he kissed me on the lips. he asked for it. I was reluctant, just not used to him calling constantly and calling me babe and baby and honey.
Well..........
I'll just sit and relax because there is nothing else I can do.
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