A recent failure may still be preventing you from seeing the positive potential of unstable dynamics now at play in your life. Being afraid of what's around the next corner could have a negative impact. Fortunately, you are at a turning point and can gain a lot by facing your insecurities. Overcoming anxiety based on your past enables you to create your future. Transforming fear into hope is a sensible strategy whenever possible.
You cannot hit a home run every time, so why are you holding yourself to impossible standards? Even the biggest Hollywood stars churn out a cinematic bomb every once and a while, and then, a few months later, they're back on all the magazine covers. Take a lesson from that. If you are down right now, that doesn't mean you have to stay down. Your successes are not based on luck -- they are based on your abilities. You are ready, willing and able
My horoscopes. It's crazy becuz I always have to run bak to him. Wen I feel horrible and hav no one else to talk to, there's him. He always listens. He inspires me wen he listens.
It's jus hard now to get him to think of someone othr than himself lately. I'm being kind by sayin lately. Wen he does though, I soak it up.
I jus feel crazy. I feel like somethin is missin and no matter wat I do the space is nevr filled. The one and only time I did feel satisfied, I complained. I feared leaving my comfort zone. I feared someone else being abl to love me and my babies whole-heartedly. During the complaint though I can say that I always let him know that he made me feel wonderful. I wanted to say it all the time. I thouht me puttin it out there was enuff. I wanted to tell him that I needed him and that I didn't want him to take that death trip away. Well, that's anothr story. Here I am once again askin for a night in shining armor.
A fairy tale, I jus forgot to ask what kind of book I wanted him to come from. The ganstar novels always leave you lonely..
I never write him he complains, and so here it is:
I didn't order what you asked for, becuz as u kno u called and tol me nevr mind.
My wallet was stollen ok, lost recently. In that damn Wal-Mart. I stay my ass at a Wal-Mart and Target. Ur oldest daughter cried and complained about getting some dirt that I tol her she cud hav. I forgot to get it so we were leaving the store. I tol her "NO" several times, and then gave in. I literally jus returned somthing and I had second thoughts bout puttin the damn return card in my wallet and I did the shit anyway. I liked that wallet too. $100 and somethin was in there. That money was not jus my money.
Oh well, I am jus tired of loosing. I hav long ben tired of ppl gaining off my expense. This lonely world can really change ur character. I talk myself out of it often.
I miss you. I jus feel good wen I can talk to you. I feel so emotional, so bombarded, and overwelmed. I even feel scared and not abl. I feel ppl taking advantage of me more than those that hav alredy. I feel powerless at some points. Although, I kno I hav to follow through, and keep going even through the doubts and the fears. I have to becuz I hav absolutely no choice. Especially wen the only ppl that trust and believe in your ideas r the same ones that could take them from you. Full profit.
Thank You for listening. The world won't kno that I feel this way at times, this is jus a bad moment. I guess. I hav to appear bright and smiley and friendly all the time. The wolves smell me sweat though, that's becuz they kno what I smell like.
the girls are good, and so am I. If I could hav spoken with you, I would not hav gotten as far as I did. You wudda diffused the way I am feelling right now. Or you wud hav asked me for somethin, and pissed me off :) I'm laughing you kno that.
I hav a cupl projects going right now. If the main one goes through, I can really be lookin at some decent change. I jus gave the guy a call to dbl ck on that, and he was talkin wit someone else that he keeps tellin me that he wants me to come and help him out wit. So he says. I want to b trusting but my trusting theory has been proven not effective. Wen ppl are drowning they do whatever they can to swim and stay on top. ?????Jus a lil like WTF (what the fuck)!!!!!!!
It's a really hard with kids. I will b payin daycare soon. Mommy is tired and she keeps getting sick. She can't nor she shudn't hav to deal wit them for the whole summer.
It's all good. You are doin all that you r supposed to to get home though, that is all that matters. I jus want a partner. Someone who trusts in me, and wants what I want as bad as I do for me and himself. Someone who helps me, cuz God knows I do all that I can for those I love. I support all the way 'as long as it's positive'.
I want to be inspired, as well as hav the capability to Inspire. I wnat osmeone to literally b my othr half. That means with these kids we go 50/50. 50/50 50/50 50/50 A functional family. Not me being home by myself at night, and my man ain't clockin in to no ovr night shift. I want us both b abl to file taxes. When a load needs to go in the drier you take the inniative and put it in for me. Surprises me often becuz I love fairytales. "you know I ma dreamer"
I want for him to love my babies as much as any real Father and Daddy loves they child. He lives to c me smile.
Well, I could go on so let me jus stop here.
Love You
NJoy
You cannot hit a home run every time, so why are you holding yourself to impossible standards? Even the biggest Hollywood stars churn out a cinematic bomb every once and a while, and then, a few months later, they're back on all the magazine covers. Take a lesson from that. If you are down right now, that doesn't mean you have to stay down. Your successes are not based on luck -- they are based on your abilities. You are ready, willing and able
My horoscopes. It's crazy becuz I always have to run bak to him. Wen I feel horrible and hav no one else to talk to, there's him. He always listens. He inspires me wen he listens.
It's jus hard now to get him to think of someone othr than himself lately. I'm being kind by sayin lately. Wen he does though, I soak it up.
I jus feel crazy. I feel like somethin is missin and no matter wat I do the space is nevr filled. The one and only time I did feel satisfied, I complained. I feared leaving my comfort zone. I feared someone else being abl to love me and my babies whole-heartedly. During the complaint though I can say that I always let him know that he made me feel wonderful. I wanted to say it all the time. I thouht me puttin it out there was enuff. I wanted to tell him that I needed him and that I didn't want him to take that death trip away. Well, that's anothr story. Here I am once again askin for a night in shining armor.
A fairy tale, I jus forgot to ask what kind of book I wanted him to come from. The ganstar novels always leave you lonely..
I never write him he complains, and so here it is:
I didn't order what you asked for, becuz as u kno u called and tol me nevr mind.
My wallet was stollen ok, lost recently. In that damn Wal-Mart. I stay my ass at a Wal-Mart and Target. Ur oldest daughter cried and complained about getting some dirt that I tol her she cud hav. I forgot to get it so we were leaving the store. I tol her "NO" several times, and then gave in. I literally jus returned somthing and I had second thoughts bout puttin the damn return card in my wallet and I did the shit anyway. I liked that wallet too. $100 and somethin was in there. That money was not jus my money.
Oh well, I am jus tired of loosing. I hav long ben tired of ppl gaining off my expense. This lonely world can really change ur character. I talk myself out of it often.
I miss you. I jus feel good wen I can talk to you. I feel so emotional, so bombarded, and overwelmed. I even feel scared and not abl. I feel ppl taking advantage of me more than those that hav alredy. I feel powerless at some points. Although, I kno I hav to follow through, and keep going even through the doubts and the fears. I have to becuz I hav absolutely no choice. Especially wen the only ppl that trust and believe in your ideas r the same ones that could take them from you. Full profit.
Thank You for listening. The world won't kno that I feel this way at times, this is jus a bad moment. I guess. I hav to appear bright and smiley and friendly all the time. The wolves smell me sweat though, that's becuz they kno what I smell like.
the girls are good, and so am I. If I could hav spoken with you, I would not hav gotten as far as I did. You wudda diffused the way I am feelling right now. Or you wud hav asked me for somethin, and pissed me off :) I'm laughing you kno that.
I hav a cupl projects going right now. If the main one goes through, I can really be lookin at some decent change. I jus gave the guy a call to dbl ck on that, and he was talkin wit someone else that he keeps tellin me that he wants me to come and help him out wit. So he says. I want to b trusting but my trusting theory has been proven not effective. Wen ppl are drowning they do whatever they can to swim and stay on top. ?????Jus a lil like WTF (what the fuck)!!!!!!!
It's a really hard with kids. I will b payin daycare soon. Mommy is tired and she keeps getting sick. She can't nor she shudn't hav to deal wit them for the whole summer.
It's all good. You are doin all that you r supposed to to get home though, that is all that matters. I jus want a partner. Someone who trusts in me, and wants what I want as bad as I do for me and himself. Someone who helps me, cuz God knows I do all that I can for those I love. I support all the way 'as long as it's positive'.
I want to be inspired, as well as hav the capability to Inspire. I wnat osmeone to literally b my othr half. That means with these kids we go 50/50. 50/50 50/50 50/50 A functional family. Not me being home by myself at night, and my man ain't clockin in to no ovr night shift. I want us both b abl to file taxes. When a load needs to go in the drier you take the inniative and put it in for me. Surprises me often becuz I love fairytales. "you know I ma dreamer"
I want for him to love my babies as much as any real Father and Daddy loves they child. He lives to c me smile.
Well, I could go on so let me jus stop here.
Love You
NJoy
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