"to live irresponsibly is to live for ones ego, not for God. The greater a person's emphisis on ego-fulfillment, the less his awareness of true joy." Swami Kriyananda

Illusions imprisons our minds and we think it's a physical item yet everything is illusion as it's only here in a temporary form and consciousness. Illusion can live forever in the mind (brain) or until we face facts and free it and our selves. J Norris

If I speak in the tongues [languages] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.

If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.

If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

It's time to stop worrying yourself ovr wat u feel u r loosing. I've lost nothing but peace of mind. I have lost nothing but time that cud have been used for me smiling -vs- frowning. Peace peace peace

It's so hard to leave the past where it is. Letting go is the simplest thing yet the hardest psychologically. Lol. Rahmeil I miss u to death. It has been year. Two days agai I sat and smiled and thought of you staying bak a day jus to taste that snapper I made for u. U asked me to please for the road also make that brkfst rice u loved so much. I c u peeping through the door wanting me to want u. I kno u don't want that anymore. U want me to b strong and finish wat I had started. To put all my ideas and dreams into form. Nothing I came up with was too big. U dreamed big as well. It's time I move on and continue to love u, cuz I can't stop though I have tried many times to convince myself otherwise. Love and smile and build off wat u have taught me and b inspired once again. Your truely NA

Chatting with some homegirls ovr some wine. Interesting topics keep getting brought up. One is : For a man which wud b easier to deal with and more forgivable, u cheated with a man or a woman?

These images that used to b distorted come bak to me now
Clear images that hav been recorded
Ur handsome face
And ur sinister yet peaceful smile
Those dimples r wat get me somehow
I look past
The fact
That
U may hav some othr motive
Faith base mode for me kicks in
Hoping not
Hoping that
that sinister canvas has been
Permantly painted on by those dimples, the promises u make, and that infamous smile
Though I now sit and think it takes me bak to two other smiles that were very different yet jus as infamous and impressionable as u r now
I think how hoping then has got me to the point where I am now
???????
It goes bak to excepting reality for wat it is
past the moment cuz
After the moment
if the canvas sits in the rain long enuff the paint is gone
I'm left wit wats at the core and wats so we say "bad to the bone" lol
Might as well admire u for the feeling u've gave
Cuz I hadn't felt this way in a while.
The carnival is closing and u can't take anything but the memories from the ride.......