chasing Fools gold by Jill Scott

Its amazing how in life we actually for our reality based on illusions of what we want. We try quinching our thirst from wine instead of water.Wondering we we are never hydrated and satisfied.
How does one escape BONDAGE. How does one escape their MIND. THERE IS No Escape
I c just why ppl are so unhappy living through their senses
Attitudes constantly changing
Perceptions on life and lifes chagnges constantly changing
Here in the mind is the hardest to break free of and accept
We say learn to accept what God allows
Learn to deal with consequences of all our actions
And good and bad consequences that come from our actions

I whispered in my Aunti ear that if she is ready, to embrace it and have no fear
She told me that she ws scared but ready wow. she told me she just feared for her husband and his surgeries and she feared for her children not having themselves together. she told me she feared for her youngest being so far away. even though she is right in her home town.
I just don't to die with regrets. I dont wan to be n y death bed and say I wish i couldve doen this or i wasn't happy bout that. Life is so short and we have the POWER to impress on ourselves our FUTURE and our FATE. if and only if we can free ourselves from bondage.

Hmmmmmm it's amazing how i want to tell myself that i am free and i am lying to myself
I guess it's a process.
NJoy 

I hope Im waking

I look down at my swollen knee as i know today is the move day. Just yesterday I culdnt really decide where and what I want to do from here.
I am sick of his cheating, his lies, his lack of time, his drinking, his aggresion, ad his violent nasty mouth, and ways. Oh yea and his selfish ways, his me myself and i mentality.
LMAOso you wonder hy the hell am I still dealing. I ask myself that too.
I just want to be loved and i just want to be happy. Happiness is the key to success. I know this as i strive hard and warn out to reach my goals.

It's been a long time. So much had changed and sadly some things have remained the same.
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U sed I hav to write. As I watched my son changing and being different. He's such a handsome boy. He's getting older now. Got his own little traits and characteristics settin in.
As I write too I hear my nephew goin in on my daughter. Ughhhhhhh they fuss and fight all the time.
He complain about bein here but he's fittin into the whole family setting just fine. He's just as annoying at times as he girls though. Lmao!
I'm back and I'm here to stay this time.
Hope u enjoy my footprints I've been leaving and will continue to leave in the sand ....

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Yes!!! We always hender ourselves from success. Even when God clearly removes things out of our lives we find ways going out of our way! To continue to b connected 

The art of letting go is a meticulous craft. However freeing and simple one. 

Why choose pain when peace is always right there with you?

I've found I have done enough trying to cut with my tongue.
Yup. Finally.
He asked me to do something for him yesterday as usual.
I felt like saying 'where's your whore?'
'Why I always gotta make calls for you? Why I Have to make sure certain things are right for and with you? $40? Why she ain't mail it to you?'
However I know my brain just has recorded images
And sounds backs of pain
Which would make my mouth
Only cause more pain
I might as well listen to what my heart says
My hearts says 'yes I can do that for you'
My heart says not a big deal. Look how excited the kids are to hear his voice and look woman. You are a winner. No matter the outcome with him you are always on top. And if you can do it do it just don't go moving mountains to do it
All done Peace 

It's amazing tat throughout all the hurt and pain that I continue to feel. I still have not yet moved on.
I have not yet moved on, however, I am living!
I have made a promise to myself to live in the meanwhile. Why should I stop? To then live with regret?
Absolutely not. I am very intuitive and gifted. I have to start opening my ears to listen. In this day and time the 'pour out' is getting louder. It's being poured unto and given unto many.
Live and Love thyself.
:) vs :(  I have a voice and I need to start using it and healing with it