Is it selfish to hurt when you want and can't have? When you have others who look at you hurt and feel bad for you because you hurt about someone else and not them.If you forget about self, would that end their hurt?

Do we hurt because we just don't know what the hell we're doing in life?

Can we end some pain if we decided that what causes such pain, I can put on hold or just do without?

Should I just give the kids away so I can hang out and date as i want too?

OR

Should I just forget about a nigga and my self and give the kids all my Mind, heart and Love.

Is Love a thing or just a mental antic?

Do I really  lose or miss anything if I can make physical love.

Do I have the right to feel good with a man or woman at the exspense of others?

What is it that I really want?

Do I even know?

I know my kids love me for sure, for now.

Will I lose that real love if I keep allowing them to see me sad?

I think I know what I have to do now! 

 

John Lee Norris

Had to whoop my kids butt 3 times today. Crazy. They runnin. Around the post office, aftr they done cut my box off. Tryin to listen and chastise them. They always get somewhere and act like they dont hav no home training or commen sense. They both really do feel like they hav a touch of ADD.
My olest of the twins act like she jus has to b heard and get he las few words out all the time. That drives me insane. Jus won't listen. I tol them since they cut up n the post ofc and Family Dollar.
Look I'm yellin at the youngest now. My husband doesn't understand y I now jus want a divorce. He claims that I am jus unsupportive of his non thinking ass wen I am here goin crazy wit these girls. He shud b here to help. I didn't have them on him we hadthem together.
He had the nerve to send me a letter talkin bout he can't believe that I am talkin to him knowin that all the shit he has accepted from me that I hav done.
Yes, I have done things. Things would hav nevr happen had he not been the unfaithful husband and selfish arrogant bastard that he is.
I had a hard time tellin u certain things, this is actuly a little bit of old news. Didnt really even go ovr the fact that we all were supposed to get a trailer visit. Our freakin trailer was on the 30th of this month. He through it all away. I still feel a lil empty. The first time he can bring me a lil joy and he goes and throws it away. He throws it away wit it bein a rational (to him)thought. He sat and thought about what he did. He made a conscious decision to throw away his good time and say the hell wit the trailer and the hell wit his family. What does he not get bout that. I am here failin on love ovr and I've again. Being miserable for my kids. Mad cuz I sex n the beginning u hav to b here to help. Do t get me wrong I can do it by myself, but I sur hell do t want to. I'm not either. It's not fair to my babies eithr. How does he not c that?
Well infuses I continue to try and get a buzz from this wine. This IB 800 shud b kickin n soon. I am gonna jus b patient. I hav so many things that I wanna do. No finances, and no day are. Crazy insane. What mothers don't go through this these days bi jus hate bein a statistic and the men I deal wit need to quit hatin to b a statistic too.
I'll finish watching the Never Endin Story wit the Grls
NJoy

So it's 8:15, the Grls r n the tub splashim around and wettin up the floor. It's time I stop bein so miserabl and heart broken from every direction. I mean like I sed b4 I can't keep cryin like I am a victim, especially if I jus sit there n get beat the hell up.
Lookin at them, and they deserve not to hav a care n the world. Everything shud b jus fine; cuz even wen interpreted like it's not okay, reality is it's jus fine.
I always tell myself it's not what happens it's how u handle the things that happen. Too bad I ant make myself follow through and behave wit that mind frame. I think I hav a habbit of initially gettin beat the hell up by my emotional self. Then once the beating he's good I say 'wait this ain't really what's going on'. I say that in my Hillary Banks voice, u kno from Fresh Prince. I cud watch reruns of that all day. I think I will.
Anyways....
I hear my oldest talkin bout stay n the tub I giv u a beer.
C I was jus gettin to that. I gotta stop bein miserable round my babies. Wen u do that they pik up on all those negative attitudes, and they begin to respond to everything n life, even the good coincidence wit a negative response. Disbelief that good cud happen to me sort of defeatous attitude. Yes I started screaming that n my head toward the end. I feel like that.
I'm too smart for depression. Jus feelings hurtin.
Well I hav to smile - vs- frow. My babies need that and deserve that from me.
Thanks for bein that ear
NJoy

The History of the WarLord Kron

" THE HISTORY OF WARLORD KRON"

by

Paul 'Negrito' Noel


 SUPERIMPOSED across the SCREEN are the WORDS.

                                    BUTINA - 1,122 B.C

The CAMERA sets-on a torch blowing in the wind as a shadowy figure passes. Begin to  blur.  Now RE-FOCUS to find warlord KRON, rough looking monster of a man, Kingly in his posture, walking along a carved-out path in the belly of a cave

EXT. KRON CAVE – ALWAYS NIGHT
WARLORD KRON enters a damp room trailed by a little, odd-looking man.  KRON chose a new advisor BEATOS minutes ago. The former tasted the end of a sharp blade after misspeaking. KRON takes a seat on a make-shift throne placed in the center of the room. Torches flicker behind him, shadowing his good nature.

BEATOS
(slimy voice)
Your plan... of dividing the LEON army will work my lord...  if more of their allies are threaten, troops will be sent to each corner of the earth to protect their crumbling alliance.
KRON turns to pour himself some wine from a wooden goblet. BEATOS chases his attention

BEATOS
 IT WILL BE THEN that we ...ah, YOU, will be able to seize the palace in LEONS weakest position. On that day, all nations will bow before you as ruler of the kingdom!

KRON
What did you say? Come closer and tell me this thing you said.
 BEATOS
I  said nothing, I meant nothing. Please ...please tell me what you would like for me to say to you.
(Under his breath)
My neck is not ripe for picking...

KRON
Stop behaving like sheep.  I have chosen you only because your kind have the gift of sight.  So speak up, what do you see?.

BEATOS
Well, I mentioned something about dividing the troops....taking over the palace and you ...reclaiming your crown?

KRON stares at a SWORD on the caves' wall as the torch lights flicker in the darkness. He walks over and picks it up with both hands. He examines the sword and admires the tiny glitters embedded in the rusty metal.

BEATOS
What a great sword.

KRON
I found it under this throne after my father was killed by a LEONIAN soldier. He would always say that he had a sword which will cause all men to bow before him. He found it in the dungeon beneath the royal palace of LEON. He was playing with his little brother LEON..

FADE IN:

FLASHBACK

INT. ROYAL PALACE – DUNGEON – NIGHT FOR DAY

We see an image run quickly pass the camera.  Another follow soon after.  Camera is on a sword rising to strike.  KRON (10) and his little brother LEON (10) are playing in the palace pretending to be warriors. They are dressed up in over sized armor. They play fight all the way down into the dungeon.

KRON
I will smite you, for I am a mighty warrior who has the mighty sword formed from iron found in the center of the earth. Errr....

LEON
I will break the forces of your darkness with my shield made by the scales of the ancient beast. You cannot harm me.

LEON losses his shield and has his back against a wall. KRON attacks him, driving the mighty warriors' sword into HIS brothers' side. LEON cries out in pain and falls to the ground dead. KRON'S little wooden sword hits the wall behind his brother. The wall begins to crumble and break away.

LEON
(getting up from the ground)
Look what you did, I am telling father

KRON
I barely hit it.  Besides, I am older, I will be easily forgiven.

LEON
Look! There is a hole. I wonder if there is a room on the other side?

KRON
Treasure!?

They exchange thrilled smiles. KRON begins to pull away at the crumbling clay/mud/dung WALL, LEON eagerly joins. It reveals a small crawlspace.   There is just enough space for a child to fit through. KRON grabs a torch from the wall and throws it inside

LEON
There is a room in there. I'm going through

KRON
No, I'm older, let me go first.

LEON
Good idea

INT. HIDDEN ROOM – NIGHT FOR DAY

 There are torches all around the tiny room.  KRON lights one which lights up the entire room to reveal....

LEON
What do you see? Pull me through

KRON
It is just a dirty old statue

KRON pulls his brother through.

LEON
It's one of the ancient kings father would always talks about.

Camera scans a broken statue of a king wrestling a vicious beast. The battle was carved in the mountains solid rock. He wears a tilted crown.  A rusty twisted sword lay at his feet. LEON moves closer to the stoned image

KRON
Do NOT touch that! Let me.

LEON has to touch it and pets the marbled creature

LEON
See, it has no bite

KRON continues to inspect the statue and stands in front of it

KRON
He should kill the beast with his sword, why doesn't he?

LEON pushes passed his brother and grabs the sword

LEON
On guard!

LEON still wants to play and points the sword at KRON. KRON brushes the sword away to notice an inscription written at the base of the statue.

KRON
"A child will slay the beast and cause all nations to bow before him."
They look at each other.  LEON lifts up the sword to slay the beast

KRON
Wait! I am older. Let me have the sword, it was I who saw it first.

LEON
True, but it was I who picked it up first, I will do it

LEON puts the sword into the mouth of the beast ...MUSIC SWELLS...and nothing happens. LEON PUSHES HARDER and harder and then....

MOTHER (O.S)
KRON! WHERE ARE YOU?

They both jump out of their skins in fright and spin around quickly

KRON
OK, we better get back

INT. ROYAL PALACE – HALL WAY – DAY

The boys squeeze themselves through the wall and go upstairs to stand before their mother who begins to fuss over them.

MOTHER
Look at you both, we have visitors here and you are dirty.

Too late the guests walk in and stare at the boys who smile and greet their Aunt and uncle while covered in dirt. The king and Queen of another land far away somewhere

AUNT
Come here you two, it has been long since I have seen you boys. You soon will be old enough to lead your own army. Where is the older? Where is KRON?

One moves forward and smiles. Palms up...KRON moves past him and takes point.

KRON
I am the elder Aunt.

AUNT
Oh my, you two do look so alike. So you are KRON take these. And you the younger have this.

The Aunt gives KRON a set of daggers and LEON gets a necklace. LEON is upset about his gift.

EXT. ROYAL GARDEN - DAY

The boys are sitting around. KRON is playing with his new daggers. LEON looks on with obvious jealousy.

KRON
Since you seem to like these so much. I will give you these daggers and in exchange I want the kings' sword.

LEON
That is a fair exchange, but I want something less important to you...your birthright.

KRON
If that is all you want....very well.

FADE OUT: PRESENT DAY

INT. KRON'S CAVE – CHAMBER – ALWAYS NIGHT

KRON stares at the sword, twisting it. We see his anger begin to grow within him

KRON
LEON becomes the king of this kingdom and renames the land LEON and my father was banished to the hot sands. This sword was suppose to make him the most powerful being in the world. All this time, I have believed lies from an old man who gave away his right to reign!

He throws the sword against the wall, it shatters into pieces and lay on the ground. BEATOS runs out of the room.  The torches light reflects on a shinny piece of metal from its fragments. It shines in his direction. He turns to see a small sword laying on the ground. The rusty sword was just a casing for a beautiful work of art. He walks over and picks it up. The sword is made of solid gold. There is a inscription on the blade.

KRON
"Slay the beast"

KRON is having a fast flashback of the ancient story of his fathers child hood. QUICK SCENE CUTS, then STOP -  Eyes wide open. slowly breaking into a smile...he knows what the sword is for....

That's all I got going on 4 now....to be continued after a beer or two!

I don't kno if I mentioned, my nephew is a rapper. I called a fee places today, I have been sayin since last yr that I wanted to book a few shows for him. I'm smiling. Ever since he was about 3 I hav been tellin his momma to get him n some modeling/acting. I like Disney.
I told myself I wud take my Grls there so they can audition. I b they momager. Lol.
Aftr wrk I met wit this guy to find a location of this lounge that I hav been dreamin about since 18. Crazy can't let this up. It seems to nurse my desires and house all these things that I wud like to do. :)
Well I went to the doctor, and finally had that knot coed on my bak again. It's been there forever. Nevr bothered me until that jerk punched me right on the area where the knot is. He hit it like that's what he aimed to do. It hurted (if there is such a wrd) so bad. Now it gives me pain. It hurts wen I presse or sit bak on it too long. My doc is the best. I tol him wen I was pregnant that I wish he cud b o e of my OB's. He always gave me non prescription advise. He even helped choose my oldest name.
Well hopefully evythin all right. I am sure it is.
That makes me wonder though, what's wrong wit me. Literally.
I am a glutten for punishment. Forget it, Huey came by last night, I got on him again bout him comin by so late. I told him he shudnt really b comin by at all let alone wakin menup knowin how early I have to b at wrk.
I let him massage my feet. Nothin else. I tol him he doesn't deserve that. Surprising he nevr gestured to wanting that again. He truly is a knuclhead. He think he can jus get what he want get giv nothin. He see he wud not bother me anymore and then kicked that we together forever shit. He sed that so I cud hav a false hope or believe he cares and does t kno how. A dumb ass kno how to care he can't help himself wen something he loves he wants to keep. To himself that is. Well whatevr. I shud not hav let him in even if he wine the kids jus tell them sometimes ppl r idiots.
I am tired. Went to the gym signed the kids up for swim lessons. And got me a armpit routine scheded ni am loosen this weight!!! Can't keep goin like this n
Look I am sleep enjoy and goodnight.
NJoy

When we forget that our true nature is Peace and Love, all is wrong in the world.
John L Norris

To be warmed by an open fire is fun. Waking up with no memory of any thing of my life means I can now live in peace and learn to love or hate all over again, WOW!
John L Norris